my mirror screams in anguish

if there is a god he must hate me
i am tired of not feeling beautiful, not even pretty at the least
i want to be one of those girls who you see in passing and think
shes gorgeous
i am only told im pretty when i say im not
its like fly swarm denial
I dont want nonstop compliments
i just wanna feel like
my appearance is something worth admiring
i am so tired of living in my skin
i would love to be those thin slender faced girls with the beautiful tan skin and long hair
at this point im describing my girlfriend

I would like to be as beautiful as her.