forever saddens me that people will stare at me in the
"why does she look like that" way
and not the
"how gorgeous she is" way

i long for a stranger to say im beautiful
from friends and family it almost has no value
it feels like they HAVE to call me that


but sometimes it still has value
especially if it's out of nowhere

please please please
please call me pretty

One, you're biting my tongue
Two, I'm kissin' on you
Three, is he better than me?
One, two, three, four

Oh, gorgeous
What a beautiful girl
But
She does not love me
I will make her love me
I wanted
I needed it so bad
Oh, gorgeous
I whisper that into her ear
When my hand slid into her skirt
When I forced down her jeans
When she was asleep
When she cried so hard
When she was alone
When I rammed the back of her into the wall
I don't know why she bled
I don't think I care
I am so good to her, but she won't call me her lover
I will make her mine
By all means necessary
I will take her body
I will make her suffer to love me
Those 5 months
I took it everyday
She's so cute when she's crying
She's so cute when she's scared
I'll never be caught
Because I made everyone think she loved me
Because I am so in love

I have a severe phobia of maggots
It's not even what they look like it's just what they symbolize
Death
Rotting
Sometimes I believe I'm rotting inside of my own body
every time i see a maggot i feel them in my veins
they eat at the impurity within me

if there is a god he must hate me
i am tired of not feeling beautiful, not even pretty at the least
i want to be one of those girls who you see in passing and think
shes gorgeous
i am only told im pretty when i say im not
its like fly swarm denial
I dont want nonstop compliments
i just wanna feel like
my appearance is something worth admiring
i am so tired of living in my skin
i would love to be those thin slender faced girls with the beautiful tan skin and long hair
at this point im describing my girlfriend

I would like to be as beautiful as her.

what was bret easton ellis on when he wrote that????????

school is pris0n!!!!!
get me out Dx

im so lonely in gorgeous
tommy feb wrote that song ab me

i h8 when ppl dont communicate

why are all the girls at this school insane and all the boys are so annoying